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My name is Rachel…
I am a runner.
I am a supporter of local businesses.
I am a coffee addict.
I am a fan of craft IPAs.
I am a lover of yummy food.
…and I am a postpartum depression and anxiety survivor.
Lately, it’s been a bit hard to talk about, which is unusual for me. But there have been many days where I have really struggled as of late.
The feelings came on much later this time around. I got really comfortable with the idea that I would be spared this time around. I was wrong. And that’s okay.
See, I really want to be all of these things WITHOUT also having the PPD/A, but (at least for now) it’s a part of my life. Personally, I know I’ll get through this. I know I’ll survive. But for now, I’ll be dealing with this unwelcome guest — the one who comes and goes as she pleases; the one who shows up at unexpected moments; the one who lingers for longer than I’d like. But I’ll get through this. I’ve been through it twice before and I’ll get through it again.
If you are struggling with postpartum depression and/anxiety PLEASE seek help. And if you want someone to talk to or cry to, shoot me a DM. ❤️
You are NOT alone!
I love that you are sharing your story! I have know so many to suffer and they sit in the darkness.
I wish this was a topic that more people discussed. Our bodies and emotions go through so much with having a baby.
THANK YOU for putting your story out there for others. It is so very hard. I did n’t suffer from postpartum depression but I have suffered from general depression and anxiety over the years. I feel great now and it’s hard to even remember the feelings and loneliness but boy was it tough at the time. You’ve got this…keeping finding your shine.
Rachel, thank you so much for sharing your story. You are going to help so many other moms!
I have 6 children and had ppd and ppa with my first. That was 14 years ago and I didn’t know what was wrong with me! I’ve had ppa after most of my kids. My heart goes out to you!!! It’s true, one of the worst things we can believe is that we are alone in this. We are not! Thank you for sharing, Rachel.