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anxiety overload!

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Hope everyone had a great weekend. Mine was very very busy. I worked Saturday in a desperate effort to make some more cash before my big move! Speaking of my big move, I’m having some serious anxieties about the whole thing. Causing almost daily anxiety attacks. Which means I’m unable to sleep well… or eat well for that matter. I need to relax.

Which leads me to this:
What do you like to do to relax?
I would love to hear your suggestions!

This will be a short post tonight. I’m sleepy. I kicked my own butt at the gym this morning and didn’t sleep well last night. Here is a picture from a party I went to and A&Bs house:

bursting at the seams

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I’m bursting at the seams! I’m exploding with excitement and anxiety! I’ve been fretting and freaking and losing my mind for the last week. I can finally reveal my secret.
I’m moving back to Syracuse, New York.
If you’ve been reading a while you may know that I used to live in Syracuse and graduated from Syracuse University (a blessing and a curse). I’ve been working in Akron Ohio for Big Company since July 2007. Prior to that I was working for same Big Company in New York. I will be moving back to Syracuse to work for Big Company (again) later this month.
It is official.
So now that it’s official, I’ve got so much on my mind that I need to get out…
Where will I live?!? Oh dear. I have wonderful friends that have offered me a couch until I find a place. This means that I will be leaving my puppy, Oscar (who isn’t really a puppy anymore. He’s 4) with my parents for now. It also means that I will be leaving BF here in Ohio.
Leaving BF in OHIO!?!? UGH! This kills me. But he will be looking for a job in Syracuse so I hope (and pray) that he will be joining me up there very soon. I don’t know what I’ll do without him in the meantime. This is tearing me apart. For real. The 5 and a half hours between us will likely kill me.
Finances. So this is the main reason for moving. Big Company pays slightly (ehh, more than slightly) less in Ohio than they do in Syracuse. The cost of living in Central NY is not dramatically different. In fact, the demand for things that are pricey here (gym membership, organic food, yoga, etc) is so much greater in NY so it’s way cheaper (Umm, gym membership for $19 a month there! YEP!).
Home. Yes, Ohio is my ‘home.’ But I definitely have always felt very at home in Syracuse. To say that I haven’t missed it since I left would be a lie. I’ve missed that place like crazy… Planet Fitness, Syrajuice, Halo, the parks, the neighborhood, the university… Sigh.

So now that I am officially moving I am officially planning my big going away party. I want to think of it as my “finally starting my life” party. I’m not sure if everyone understands what a dramatic change I am making here. I will be leaving everything I know is safe and taking the biggest risk of my life. I’m so excited and so terrified at the same time. If anyone has any words of wisdom they would like to share, I’d surely be grateful and appreciative.

cautiously optimistic

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I always get the crappy fortune cookie when we go out for Chinese. It’s inevitable. I’m unsure how it always seems to be this way. BF will get something like “You will have amazing things happen to you” and I will get “You won’t die today.” OK, so I’m being slightly dramatic. But seriously, when we first started getting Chinese together, I would get these really crappy fortunes in my fortune cookie while he got a really powerful and uplifting message. I was bummed.

To clarify hear, BF and I started dating in October 2008. I didn’t realize this prior to, but he is an addict to Chinese cuisine. Me? Not so much. I enjoy the occasional piece of sesame chicken (or vegan sesame chicken) but tend not to stray. So we eat a LOT of Chinese… and, without fail, every single time, I get a crappy fortune. I even hesitate when going to grab a cookie… is this going to tell me, yet again, how something good is not going to happen to me.

So Tuesday I picked up some Chinese takeout (Garlic green beans and Lo Mein! YUM!). It was delicious… and I really wanted to see what that cookie had in store for me… I finally decided to make the trip back to the kitchen to get it. And…

A new voyage will fill your life with untold memories.


Sigh of relief! I need a new voyage. And, in fact, I’m still waiting to hear if I will be taking a new voyage to a new city. Tomorrow is the day that I am supposed to hear about the job! Please cross your fingers for me!



I’m slightly nervous about where my life will be in just a couple of months!