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Here’s the thing — the scale? It’s only moved a tiny bit. Like, only a pound and a half lost in 4 weeks. But? I’ve gained strength + muscle and I’ve lost inches. So NSVs for the win! Right? That’s what I’m trying to convince myself.
But here’s the truth: It’s been really, really, hard. I’m good most of the time. But those ‘special’ days/nights/moments? They are my downfall. I take the treat yo’ self mantra to the extreme, ya’ll. My only saving grace has been that I’ve been kicking butt on my fitness points — for the most part.
Get moving, stay moving //
Up until, literally, the last few days, I’ve been kicking bootay at keeping myself very active. But I randomly got hit with a teeny bout of depression over the weekend (perhaps it’s hormonal? I’m not sure), and it totally knocked me on my butt. I struggled to get out of bed, let alone get myself moving or to the gym.
But up until then? I was kicking butt and taking names — hitting the gym and fitness classes two times a day; hitting 10k steps; the works. And, although the scale would beg to differ, I could literally feel the difference.
I’ve been stronger, leaner, and, overall, happier.
Keep tracking those points //
This is where I’ve been slacking. I do track, but then by the weekend I’m forgetting to track and feel all blah and off course. I really need someone to text me “track your food” once a day so that I can respond with “okay, okay! Fine!” 🙂
Here’s one of the things that has been changing during this ‘transformation.‘ Ya see, I finally am starting to embrace where I’m at. That doesn’t mean that I’m going to stop moving forward; but, for all of my life, I’ve been always been a “when I” girl. You know: “When I” am at my goal weight, I’ll be happy. “When I” fit in my pre-pregnancy jeans, I’ll be happy. “When I” weigh xx pounds, I’ll be happy.
But why not just be happy in the now!? Why drudge through the days waiting for the “when I” moments? I could be miserable waiting for god knows what; or I can embrace the journey and love the process.
So that’s what I’m doing. Hell or highwater. Even if I occasionally have to remind myself. I am going to work on being happy right now.
Will you help me and hold me accountable!?
leslie
This is great. I struggle with my weight since I’ve had my son. I went up several sizes and have stayed there. It’s much more difficult at 35 to lose the weight. It’s so discouraging sometimes. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. It helps to know we aren’t alone. Being happy in the now is a great lesson! Thanks for the reminder and positive words.
Rachel
It’s true – I’m often envious of people in their twenties. They seem to put so little effort into eating right and working out, yet their metabolism seems to be fine. Yet, here I am at 32, busting my booty at the gym, eating right, and losing a whole half pound! Lol
Joanna
I love this. I am in the middle of my own fitness and health journey right now and it has been an adventure, with lots of ups and downs.
Jessica Kromer
Well I think it’s great you’re noticing a difference in inches and you’re gaining muscle. As long as you’re eating healthy and you keep moving like you said, I call that a success in my book. You can do it! Hopefully you can get motivated to get out of this small slump and move past it. Thanks for sharing your journey!
Happily Alice Blog
I love your site! I’ve noticed what helps me the most is making small changes. I’ll make one small change, get used to it, and move forward. That way, it isn’t too shocking to my system!
Divya
This is awesome!! I’m holding a 5-day “healthy eating challenge” to get back on track (and hopefully build momentum that’ll carry me through the rest of the month and the rest of the year. I’d love to have you join me! (Shoot me an e-mail if interested!)
Sara M.
Oh man, I’m hearing you loud and clear! I really have to focus on being happy in the body I’m in… especially now that I am pregnant and I can’t diet. But once this baby is weaned…
Katherine
Weight and fitness alone can’t make you happy, so I think it’s a great idea to work on being happy wherever you are on the journey!
Jasmine Hewitt
The main reason I loved Taoism, is that it teaches you mindfulness for the moment, and just being happy in the moment. It’s not the destination that makes you happy, its the journey!
Krystal Sadler
I love this! So honest and so relatable. You are setting such a great example about self-image to other mommas! My favorite point was walking away from the “When I’s” since I do the exact. same. thing!
Melissa @ Modernly Old Fashioned
Congrats on the inches lost! Sounds like me, I get into a funk and a “when I” phase and the lose motivation. Kudos for pushing through! Being happy NOW is so important but so easy to forget about. Great motivation!
Stefanie
I completely gave up on looking at the number on the scale and focused on how my body was changing. Keep up the good work!
Arushi
This is such a great post and reminder to be happy and feel loved. Thanks for sharing
Nicole
Sounds like you are doing a great job even with the slacking. I always try to remember we can’t always be at 100% all the time!
Amber Battishil
It sounds like you are doing great! I always find that I have some really great days, a lot of okay days and then a couple crap days a month (I think a lot of mine is hormonal too). Give yourself grace and keep it up!
Gillian
I loved reading your update! I too am on a health journey and it can be SO SO hard to stay on track! I’m WAY too hard on myself sometimes.
Jenn
Way to go! Every little bit counts and you’re doing a great job!!
Mae
I love this post. It’s a great reminder that we are in charge of our own health. I try to eat healthy but certainly need to work out more!
Mae | http://www.thegospelofbeauty.org
Amanda
Congrats on all the weight lost.
Great read and encouragement!!